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For the dedicated truth-seeker on the spiritual path, the journey will always demand commitment, determination, courage, confront and adaptability.
And yes, like everything in life, a positive attitude and approach IS important.
And this is actually a very empowering understanding, because your perspective and your attitude is up to YOU. You are the one who can, at any moment, choose to change your view and your attitude towards life.
Now, let me make this clear: I am not speaking about putting on your rose-coloured glasses and pretending that everything is just wonderful when it simply is not. Adopting a positive, constructive and self-empowering attitude needs to be grounded in a healthy desire and commitment to perceive and know the truth.
If your ‘positive attitude’ is based in deluding yourself, avoiding and denying the difficult areas that need confronting and working on, living a lovely illusion where nothing is ever short of ‘wonderful’, or where the issues are always someone else’s….then you are not in touch with reality. All your are doing is lying to yourself, and THAT is disempowering, not empowering.
The first step to empower yourself is to commit to loving the truth above all the comfortable illusions and glamours, all the lies that you may –consciously or unconsciously – have told yourself.
This process of embracing the Truth is a progressive unfolding. It is extremely unlikely that one day you decide to perceive all the Truth as it really is, and ‘BAM’ you have it! To be honest, all of us, no matter how far we have come on the spiritual path, still perceive such a small portion of the ultimate Truth of All. To open up to all of it at once would overwhelm all our faculties and coping mechanisms, and probably kill us. We simply could not face process it so fast.
The process of building illusions, avoiding and denying feelings or issues, is a coping mechanism. When we are either not ready or not willing to face the truth of a situation, we often limit our perception of what is happening in order to take only that which we feel we can safely cope with. This happens physically, emotionally, mentally or spiritually. A very simply example of this is how people can pass out, ‘check out’ physically, when undergoing too much physical shock or pain. It’s very common. When things get too much, the person ‘switches off’. When it gets too much for us, we put up a sort of wall to stop us experiencing the reality of what is really going on, be it within us or around us. We avoid and deny the truth. Unfortunately, for almost everyone, once these walls are up, they stay up.
For example, if something emotionally challenged you when you were 5 years old, you put up a wall of denial around this particular issue or feeling. Then, for the rest of your life you keep shutting out this issue or any of these types of feelings. One problem with that is that what you could not cope with at 5-years old, you could probably cope with now. So you are needlessly shutting this part of your experience out.
Another problem with this process of avoidance and denial is that it becomes a bit like a funnel: The more we resort to pushing away painful or challening experiences – the more denial and avoidance areas we carry – the more limited our perceptions become. The more we deny our experience , the less we are in touch with who we are, what we feel. We end up almost blindfolded, with a very limited ability to perceive the truth about us or the life that surrounds us.
This is how we end up as an adult, having a sense of self which is actually such a small part of all that we are! We become like icebergs: who we are conscious of being, our conscious sense of ‘self’, is like the tip of the iceberg… A much bigger chunk of us has become subconscious, hidden under a reflective surface of denial. Most of us are not even aware it is there!
Another consequence of this avoiding and denying in order to cope is that the more you do it, the more you get consumed with trying to ‘cope’ and protect yourself from anything that threatens the safety of your comfort zone. The more you do this, the more you get caught up in fear and maintaining your avoidance in denial in order to ‘survive’, physically, emotionally or mentally. You become more and more invested in maintaining the lie and begin to defend your illusions and denial with the ferocity of a cornered animal. We become defensive, aggressive (including passive aggressive), aloof, manipulative or scared. We run away, point the finger… we get caught up in the fight of flight instinct of the animal self.
It is not a pretty picture, yet it is all too familiar. I am sure you have seen it, or felt it, before too.
So, one of the first steps in adopting an attitude for success on the spiritual path is to accept that you carry a whole lot of hidden ‘iceberg’ under the surface of your avoidance and denial, and to try and NOT be defensive around it. If you love the Truth more than you love your comfortable lies and illusions, then you will be willing to acknowledge the denial where it is, instead of attack those who point it out.
Of course, you need to be in discernment. Don’t just take anyone’s opinion at face value. Usually, a sign that you have an issues is if you have any charge around it. If you get triggered, however mildly, into judging, attacking, defending, justifying, being self-righteous, wanting to prove the other person wrong, rebelling, pushing away, shutting down, manipulating, overthinking to override feeling… and so on, then you most surely have some denied or avoided issue there that you need to look at.
Now, the other side of the coin here regarding this understanding is to see that the only way to return to a state of Grace and reclaim the truth of who you truly are is a lot more about unravelling than about piling on more things. It is a process of undoing, not ‘doing’. It is about melting the layers of false identity and illusion, not building on more layers on top of our personal iceberg.
And while we learn techniques, wisdom and develop certain skills and abilities on the way, you will never get anywhere by trying to pile new integrations on top of all your dysfunction and denial. In order to learn and grow on the path, you need to make room for the new knowing. Only by emptying some untruth in yourself, facing them and letting them go, can you make room for the truth to rush in.
Nature hates a void, so if you make room and stay aligned, attuned and connected to the highest Truth and love possible, the Universe will just fill the space with wondrous new knowing.
Worry, worry, worry… so much time and energy spent worrying about money, career, jobs, kids, partner, siblings, friends, other people’s reactions and opinions, being too fat, being too thin, too pale or too dark; we worry about the future, the past, the present, possibilities and non-possibilities, potential success and potential failure, dreams never chased and dreams yet to be grasped, we worry…. aaaah! too much!
What are we doing?
We are raised in a culture of worry. We are taught that to love someone means to worry about them. We are duped into believing that in order to stay in control of our future, we have to worry about it. We are told that worrying about all of life is being ‘realistic’ and having a solid head on our shoulders. We are told that those who worry are those who care. And so, confined to a human condition surrounded with uncertainty, we resort to worry to obtain an illusory sense of control. We worry in a desperate attempt to shout out to the Universe that we care!
But the Universe does not speak the language of worry. Because in truth, worry has nothing to do with love, and a lot to do with fear. The Universe speaks only the love and truth language. That’s it. Worrying is like praying for what you do not want to happen. All that time worrying means time imagining all the bad things that could happen, or may happen or which we do not want to happen. That is a lot of thought and energy given to what we do not want. And energy follows thought…To me this is tragic because there is so much misconception around worry that most people are unaware that when they worry, all they do is engage in fear and up the chances of making things harder for themselves and their loved ones.
For those of you who know a thing or two about the laws of the Universe (some of them known as the ‘laws of physics’), you know that whatever you put time and energy into is more likely to happen. This is tested and proven by anyone observing how life works. For example if you put a lot of time and energy into achieving a particular goal, you are a lot more likely to achieve it, even if it takes time. If you spend a lot of time energy being optismistic about your life, you are more likely to live a fulfilling, happy life (on condition that you are not using ‘false optimism’ to cover a treasure-chest of insecurities and fear-based patterns). Fear attracts that which you are afraid of. I have seen this happen so many times, it’s not funny (I certainly did not find it funny when it happened to me!). Most people I come accross believe they are loving and caring when they worry; but all they are doing is putting energy into the manifestation of what they so fear and do NOT want to happen! Worrying is one of the more wasteful and fruitless use of our energy, as well as one of the most wide-spread sabotage patterns present in human beings. Think what else you could do with all these ptecious resources of time and energy!
But don’t worry, it is possible to stop this madness.
For those of you who are thinking ‘But I can’t help worrying! I just can’t stop it”. Let me remind you of who is doing the worrying: you. Worrying is an activity, usually a mental activity. It is like saying, ‘I can’t stop walking’, or ‘I can’t stop talking’…. it’s silly. This is your thoughts and you are doing the worrying, so you can change this nasty habit! Unless you have a mental or medical condition preventing you to do so, you are still the one in control of your thoughts and actions.
Now, the first step to quit worrying is to realise that we are not impotent llittle victims in our lives. Worry has a lot to do with feeling out of control – for ourselves and our loved ones. And that is when we go into fear and start spinning around a vicious circle of anxiety (worry is a mild form of anxiety). We need to realise that life is not some random, scary event that just happens to us. And really, deep down, all of us know this. If we did not feel that what we do can have an effect, we would not bother worrying at all. We do have an input on what happens in our lives and the Universe truly is a benevolent place/being. When we chose love, integrity, kindness, optimism, gratitude for life’s learning and the courage to grow from our experiences, our life is transformed into a purposeful journey where everyday is a gift. This is when we truly begin to take part in our life, rather than be buffeted by it. This is when we reclaim the original power of free will: the power to choose love. This is the higher path and there is no room for worry in such a life.
From this empowered state we can simply choose to debunk the ‘love myth’ that was created around the activity of worry. We wake up to the fact that we have had it all front-to-back; that loving someone, or having aspirations, means we want to not introduce fear, gloom and doom into the equation. Instead, we focus on love and success. My philosophy is that if you love someone, you hold a vision of their highest potential, instead of filling their potential future with fear. If you want to achieve something in your future, you hold a positive vision and unshakeable resolve to manifest that future for yourself. You decide that you will manifest it, you focus your thoughts, energy and actions on the end goal and you learn whatever lessons are necessary on the way. Practice this new attitude to life, and when you catch yourself doing the old worry thing, stop, don’t judge, let go and reorient your thoughts towards love. Be patient; when you have had a lifetime habit of worry, it takes a bit of time to retrain yourself.
There is another element in this equation: releasing attachments to outcome. If you are desperately clinging to one particular outcome for any given situation, then you are in fear. If you are attached, you are more likely to worry that something different from your chosen outcome may happen. If you have such attachments and agendas, either for yourself or your loved ones, then you need to look at what need this outcome would fulfill in you. Attachments and expectations is often about fulfilling a need – often an egoic need. The possibility of this need not being fulfilled drives you into anxiety. In order to let go of attachments, let go of the unhealthy needs causing them. For example if you are desperate to see your kid go to a particular university, considering that it may or may not happen, you start to be anxious about it. You worry. Of course, this is not helping you or your kid. What could be the need behind this attachment? Well, it could be about wanting your kid to follow in your footsteps (if it is the same university you went to), which could be about affirming that you are worthy of their admiration and emulation. Or perhaps it could be about the good opinions of others and how it would reflect on you if your child went to this particular university. Or perhaps you are reacting to your child’s attachment ( if they are desperate to go to that university for whatever reason). In this case it is about your need to protect your child from experiencing any pain or feelings of rejections,. While being understandable, this is an unhealthy need simply because anyone alive is bound to experience pain. What we make of our painful experiences will define the impact it has on us. Instead of teaching your child to avoid pain, hide from it, teaching them how to use painful experiences as lessons and opportunities to grow and learn how to do it better next time. Attachments means we are scared to lose that which we are attached to. Attachment is, again, about fear. So you need to really work on healing the needs concealed behind your attachments.
In the end, once you have worked on integrating these three elements of the equation, you begin to embrace life from a more empowered, surrendered, positive perspective. Like magic, your perspective and attitude towards your own life is what defines the experience you will have of it. Suddenly worrying makes no sense at all. It feels unpleasant and restrictive. And you, you are free and you know it.
Happiness. A lovely concept… or is it?
What is happiness? Perhaps for you it is a successful career and a generous 6-figure annual income, or perhaps it is a white-picket-fenced dream with all the spouse-kids-and-dog trimmings, or perhaps a never-ending travelling adventure, or world stardom, or a bottomless stash of your drug of choice, or eternal youth and fitness…
The quest for happiness has become almost epidemic; yes I say epidemic! It is used by corporations and marketers to sell us an infinite string of products which are all – if you believe the hype – going to give us happiness. Does it though? Of course not. At best it will momentarily scratch the itch, but it won’t be long until we resume the ‘happy search’. The way I see it, the concept of happiness as most of us perceive it today could as well have been invented by these same corporations and marketing/advertising companies. Why? Because the pursuit of happiness has become the first and foremost motivator of our consumerist, hedonistic, pillaging society.
Like happiness junkies, we are constantly chasing our next happy fix. The more we buy, use, take or consume – not only in terms of products, but also from other people, relationships and from nature itself – the more we have an apetite for an even bigger fix! “Give me my next buzz of falling in love, or getting that hot guy/chick into bed, or my next dream holiday to get away from it all, or my next win at the money machine”…etc.
The truth is, happiness is a selfish pursuit. It is all about ‘what’s in it for me?’ and ‘how much can I take to make me feel better/happy?”. And this, when it becomes such a primary motive and intention of billions of people each with their own little happy fairy tale scenarios, can become a very destructive way of life. How do you think we came to be in such a dire environmental situation? Because we have been taking and keep taking and taking and taking in order to bolster our comfort and happy little lives. Almost everyone who has contributed to the mess we are in – which is all of us – has done it out of hunting for their definition of happiness. Whether it is becoming a billionaire or having great political power, feeling safe against the threats of nature or eliminating perceived ‘evil ennemies’, it is all about everyone chasing and defending their little piece of the cake.
Am I urging you to give up all your dreams and instead martyr yourself for some vague notion of the greater good? Absolutely not. Instead I am introducing here the idea of refining and realigning our dreams of happiness to be in harmony with the greater good. Yes, it is possible! This necessitates a radical letting go of certain base fears and limiting beliefs, and demands an expansion of the mind to embrace a deeper understanding of what true, lasting happiness is really about.
One foundational hickup in our current concept of happiness is that it infers an inherent lack within us. If you participate into the general obsessive happy hunt, you simply have to believe you lack something which can only be filled by doing or obtaining something or someone outside of yourself. This false happiness is not something you have and can experience as a birthright, or a god-given; it is something you must chase, search and find…for the illusion of a moment. Just like the idea of being born in sin, our chase for happiness has condemned us to feeling deffective right from the beginning and thank you very much! This in itself is a faulty premise.
The second misconception around this notion of happiness is that being happy is a constant, steady, flatline experience: always happy and smiling, never experiencing pain or loss. This is a nice little fluffy dream filled with pink bunnies and candyfloss which has little to do with life and – let’s face it – would be dead boring if experienced for more than five days! Just as light cannot be discerned without darkness, so our joyful moments cannot be discerned without the ecstatic agony of pain and sorrow. The key to transcending this faulty notion of happiness is to let go of the judgment of pain as something ‘bad’; to accept it as part of life and to cherish the wonderful learning and growth that comes from such delightfully and frighfully difficult experiences. Joy and sorrow need to be embraced equally and perhaps this in itself could be subject for another post.
The third faulty foundation is that true, lasting happiness can be obtained by possessing or experiencing something outside of yourself… I am sure you have heard about this one before. Nuff’ said.
In the end, the transformation of faulty happiness into genuine, healthy happiness comes down to asking yourself which part of you seeks a certain happiness: your deepest heart and spirit, or your little fearful, selfish, dysfunctional ego? True, lasting contentment and joy is an experience of the spirit. It is independent from the limitations of space and time or the phenomena of our daily dramas. The little negative ego -which is the sum total of all your fear-based patterns, beliefs and attachments – can only experience imcompleteness and the fruitless race to obtain relief (always momentary) from itself. It does this by triggering ‘happy’ sensations which are nothing but a lovely distraction from the sobering truth that ego/fear cannot transcend itself. Fear is not something you get genuine relief from, it is something you face, feel, acknowledge and let go. Fear is not something you act on, indulge or satisfy, it is something you clear and move beyond.
If you are honest with yourself – and I mean really honest – you will know whether your ‘happy dream’ is about the heart and spirit, or about appeasing the struggles of the little ego self. And please, do enjoy life, fall in love, buy yourself a spanky new car and get the dog that go with your children and white-picket fence. But do it because you choose to, not because you need it to feel better about your life. Embrace your life from a place of love and wholeness and heart-empowerment, not from trying to fill a hole within. Be clear on your motives and intentions, and life will gradually re-orient itself around your choices.
Remember also that this kind of happiness – real and true happiness – is often challenging and stretching because it has your best interest at heart. We live in a benevolent universe and love will encourage you to grow into more of who you truly are. Love is generally not the easy choice, and neither is true joy and contentment. It is not easy because it goes against the grain of your fear and selfish preservation patterns. It seeks to empower you and allow you to find your place in the world. To embrace true happiness, one usually has to let go of false happiness. This means letting go of all the fears and needy attachments that used to drive the search for false happiness.
What happens when you follow the call of the heart, with your courage in both hands as you face and release your fear? The Universe sucks you into place. Spirit guides your choices. What makes your deepest soul’s heart sing just so happens to also be good for the greater good! You don’t need to even know what the greater good is, let Mrs Universe manage all that. All you need to do is make sure you make your spirit happy, not your ego. This happiness is not always full of bouncy squeals, but it is however deeply fulfilling and meaningful. It knows the difference between doing what feels right vs. doing what feels good, and the results are a good feeling that reaches to the root of your being in a way only truth can.
Now, if everyone on the planet lived this way, I believe we would be a far way off from global warming and rampant warfare, the rat-race and growing social unrest. We would all be in the process of falling into place and allowing each of us to be our own unique version of happy.
I say yes!
It is late enough for my eyes to hurt and my brain to slur, yet it felt important to throw these first words into blogworld before completing my day. This is a multi-topic blog for people who are seekers of deeper truths, hunters for sacred meaning, avid life-junkies and love enthusiasts. It is for you who wish to bring joy and love to your everyday adventures, while being real and authentic. It is to you, who seek to lift the illusory veils of an empty existence to reveal the stark and magical reality behind, that I dedicate these words.
There is a section dedicated to the celebration, inspiration and empowerment of women and the great Feminine Spirit, so close to my heart. Relationships is another main area where I will endeavour to share experience and wisdom to assist you to manifest and maintain harmonious relationships, or perhaps make you laugh or cry just when you need it. As a thorough enjoyer of travelling as a connection with the heart and spirit of places I visit, I will share of my little and big adventures with you. And of course, I will also allow the spirit that flows to me to pour out words and voices from the silence, may they serve you and awaken the wellspring of truth within. Finally, I will share here about my novel, The Keys of Alchemy, which I am in the process of creating.
May our journey together be wonder-full and enlightening.